bit player

sometimes i feel like i am a bit player in my own life, and that the role to which i've been assigned is the asshole. this usually occurs when i haven't been given the whole script, but maybe a page or two, and i am supposed to play off of others' reactions with the misinformation that i have been given.

and of course, i do something colossally stupid, but i think that what i did was justified, until suddenly i am given the entire story, at which point i feel like the meanest or dumbest shite who ever tread.

am i the only one who does this? does it fucking matter really whether i am or not?

darth sardonic